I Don't Know Anymore

It pains me to watch videos of people on YouTube that I feel I have grown up with, per say, going off and doing their own things and living the life they've always wanted while I'm stuck at home, depending on my mother for a ride to the simplest of places, working only a few hours a week and not being able to support myself at all. I feel like I've grown up SO much in the last year but my financial situation hasn't allowed me to act on these new found responsibilities I feel I am exposed to now. I'm 16 with a part-time job and a hobby that requires investment and it's frustrating to know that the two things I love, marching band and YouTube, cost so much money that I don't have the time to earn! I need a car and insurance but can't get it until February and I need a new camera and a new laptop and money to go to New York and then college starts and then what am I to do? I'll acquire all the things I need, just so I can turn 18 and have a whole new set of responsibilities. Growing up in the 21st century has got to be one of the hardest things... what happened to riding horses around and growing your own food and occupying yourself with things other than the Internet? We are expected to grow up so fast and then we hit our mid-20s and we get stuck. I don't know what I want to do with my entire life. Fifty years I have to think about, right now. I haven't even experienced anything out of my drug infested high school and restricting small town. I haven't been given the opportunity but I'm expected to just make it happen. Why do numbers determine our social status? My 18th birthday does not mean I'm an adult and ready to be out on my own. Growing up these days is so much more than when the laws were made at the time of our countries birth... Times are changing. People are making these changes but they're not ready to change. What's a girl to do?